“Michael Jackson’s weekend”… kinda late, I mean: he’s already dead. He’ll never know we really cared.

Cuando Alejandro Rendón, Arrigo Coen, Jaime Casillas y Rascón Banda nos abandonaron, Teodoro Villegas comenzó a hablar sobre hacer homenajes en vida.
¿Después de muertos? Ya para qué…
El miércoles llevé a mi mamá al despacho del Lic. Ramón Obón León (besotes). Desayuné con ella, me fui a la oficina y comí con mi chico. Todo bien.
El jueves desperté con ronchas. “Mosquitos, no hay tox”… Pero luego de un rato eso ya parecía viruela loca. Al servicio médico de la oficina de Jhonatan Rama (en mi oficina no me dan ISSSTE): intoxicación. ¿Pues qué comiste? ¡Nada fuera de lo normal!
Me dormí casi toda la tarde gracias al antihistamínico Xuzal.
El viernes a la oficina. Todo cool hasta que Jhonatan me dice:
-Murió Michael Jackson.
-…
(¿QUEEÉ???)
-Cáncer en la piel.
Según mi madre, que un paro cardíaco cuando ensayaba para los conciertos que iba a dar.
Recurro a la fuente más confiable de noticias: Internet (quien sólo ve televisión igual ni se enteró del escándalo Aristegui – De la Madrid – Salinas).
PerezHilton.com dijo que, al parecer, fue sobredosis de una medicina legal…
¡…pero qué novedad!!! Heath Ledger, Anna Nicole Smith, el gran misterio sobre Marilyn Monroe, ETCÉTERA…
En resumen: Michael Jackson ya estaba casi en bancarrota. En sus últimas apariciones públicas prefería ocultar su rostro. Según dicen que dijo su propia familia, él dependía de ene fármacos legales, entre ellos uno derivado de la morfina que sirve para tratar dolores severos (”there’s a hole in our soul that we fill with dope”, escribió Marilyn Manson). Pasó por una intervención (”queremos que reconozcas que tienes un problema que nos está afectando a todos”, bla bla) y pensaban que no le caería mal internarse (”Rehab”, escribió Amy Winehouse).
Cada que una celebridad muere trágicamente, quedan millones de preguntas. Si un médico vivía en su casa, ¿cómo no pudo reanimar a Michael cuando dejó de respirar? Si Michael se inyectaba todo el tiempo para evitar dolores físicos y/o emocionales, ¿por qué no tenía tolerancia al fármaco? ¿Por qué demonios es taaan común morir de una combinación de medicamentos legales???
Confieso no haber sido la gran fan de Michael Jackson, pero lo admiro. Fui al concierto en el Estadio Azteca porque me llevaron, nos tocó un poquiiito lejos y entre lo poco que recuerdo está el público enloquecido, la rola “Billie Jean” y el famoso paso de Moonwalker; Epcot Center repleto de memorabilia de Michael…
Un amigo de mi infancia alucinaba por él y me hizo ver documentales de Black or White, de Jackson con Michael Jordan, etc etc. Nunca regresé el CD prestado de Dangerous y si antes me cortaba las venas con la de “Who is it?”, hoy me hizo chillar la de “In the closet”.
Hace poco pensaba que “qué curioso” que los escritores mueran de cáncer o de alcoholismo o de simple locura, mientras que los rockstars mueren de sobredosis (de algo legal o no). Alguna vez me eché una mega conversación de Messenger con un amigo del TEC sobre por qué Lindsay Lohan tiene tantos rollos mentales que le impiden ser la actriz del siglo, por qué Britney Spears terminó rapándose y casi colgándose con unas sábanas, el clásico caso de estrella infantil problema que fue Drew Barrymore…
¿Qué es lo realmente triste, más allá de una muerte a la que todos estamos condenados???
Michael Jackson fue una estrella. PUNTO. Lo seguirá siendo por siempre. Desde pequeño destacó y como solista rompió cientos de records. Nada le quita los Grammys, los discos de oro, las satisfacciones…
Pero al público en general le FASCINA que una estrella caiga.
Nunca se sabrá si en serio Michael gustaba “demasiado” de los niños (como tanto MARRANO que llega a este blog buscando pedofilia e incesto… FUCK OFF!!! GET OUT OF HERE) o si sólo quisieron sacarle dinero. Nunca se sabrá si fue vitíligo o si se hizo algo en la piel. Nunca se sabrá la verdad sobre supuestos abusos de que fue víctima, nunca se explicará del todo el porqué de su “Síndrome de Peter Pan”… Tantas y tantas cosas de las que se burlaban los mismos que ahora lloran por él, los mismos que hoy están de luto pero que antes leían con todo el morbo posible que si Michael casi tira al bebé por la ventana, que si su matrimonio era falso, sha la la.
¿Acaso no es HIPOCRESÍA??? Los mismos que se burlaban de su bancarrota, de sus cirugías, de su bizarra vida privada y de su recién develada autodestrucción, los mismos que hoy juran lamentar esta tragedia…
En fin. Podría escribir horas al respecto y tal vez nunca explique mi punto, así que lo que queda de esta noche veré sus videos en Youtube y finalizo este post con la entrada de blog de MySpace donde Lisa Marie Presley dice que su ex esposo sabía que iba a morir como Elvis :(

Michael Jackson

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viernes, junio 26, 2009
He Knew.
Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general.
I can’t recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death.
At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, “I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the way he did.”
I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that.
14 years later I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death and what may have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the unstoppable tears.
A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn’t predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened.
The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy.
All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted.
I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once.
Our relationship was not “a sham” as is being reported in the press. It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or know a “Normal life” found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much.
I wanted to “save him” I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened.
His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but didn’t know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be the outcome then.
At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself.
He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated.
When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad.
Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson’s being or actions.
I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him.
I was in over my head while trying.
I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision.
The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow.
After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret.
Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation.
At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now.
As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted.
Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him.
He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together.
I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and turmoil now.
He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or will be.
I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is.
The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right.
I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening.
~LMP
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